HENTIKAN SPEKULASI YANG MENGUNDANG KONTROVERSI DAN KONFRONTASI YANG MENCALAR HATI

Terkejut, terkedu dan terkelu,
Keheningan pagi itu tidak seperti biasa,
Hiruk pikuk seluruh negara,
Dibadai sejarah yang baru tercipta,
Berdebar hati mencerna berita yang diterima,
Adakah ini mimpi atau satu lagi gurauan melampau,
Hati dan fikiran statik,
Tidak bergerak atau berfungsi,
Detik dan masa berlalu perlahan,
Hingga terasa seperti waktu tidak berjalan,
Oh tuhan, apakah yang terjadi?

Awan biru menjadi saksi,
Segala apa yang terjadi,
Kehilanganmu terlalu misteri,
Sehingga timbul segala macam kontroversi,
Dari mereka yang tidak punya isi hati,
Hanya tau mencemuh dan mencaci,
Menerbitkan segala kontroversi yang mengundang kesedihan di hati,

Aku merayu, melutut jika perlu,
Tolong hentikan segala spekulasi,
Yang meremuk dan meluluhkan hati segala umat manusia yang berakal fikiran,
Hentikanlah segala tuduhan,
Karena ia bukan memudahkan tapi menyusahkan segala-galanya

answer 2

An answer is an answer. When odds in your favor, the answer will likely bow upon you. And if destiny give the anwers that most likely will torn u into pieces, it always meant to be somethig. Silver lining always there behind the cloud isn't it? So just keep calm and add to your to-do-list : rilex. Sit tight and enjor your ride. Literally i meant it. Because God's know better for everything happen.

goodbye.

I'm saying goodbye. Nothing more hurtful as for now. Tons of problems that shouldn't bother me. But instead, those haunting me badly. Breath being heavier more and more. Less oygen to make my brain fucntion normally. Creating another room of imaginations and fantasies. Or should i name it as room of escapism? Nevertheless, goodbye is the best way for time being. Forget all about the world. Forget all people i loved and all favorite thing. Let me be own my way. Let me hurt. Let me bleeding till death. I am me.

answer 1

Already got the answer for that question.

new sem, hectic , mess or bless?

Been a while from last post. Not because of pack crammed schedule i have nor because of running out of idea to write. Simply because i dont have the heart to write. Once in a while, my thoughts just be a thought. Not complicated and simply to define or refine. New sem just started and its more hectic than predicted. With mountains of work to be done, hectic sem of course will add more value to my life, i think. After a week of new sem, i figured that every subject in this sem will not going easy with me. Either i work my lazy ass up to excel or doing nothing like i always do and prepare for failure and another paper to be worried for another sem and will brings another solid reason for why I should extend my bachelor period. Not like i am gonna love it but i will beat the subjects badly with my own way so i will not regret anything during the hectic sem. This so not the things i want to write but nevermind. I will keep it for the next time.